01/29/2018
So my 14 day fast last a solid 12 days. But not because I got weak and wanted a drink. But more because I’m trying to do this thing we’re Iegit do what I want to do. I’ve spent so much of my life like holding myself back from a lot of shit. Not having sex with people I wanna sleep with, not falling in love with people I would love to fall in love with, holding myself back because I’m scared. Or do shit I just don’t want to do ie: going to birthday parties for people who don’t come to mine, spending money to support people who don’t support me. You know, shit like that.
So now I just fully want to live in my truth and do what I want to do. Of course keep it responsible and take calculated risk. But I just have spent so much time telling myself no. I deserve the YES!
I didn’t really accomplish all the goals I wanted from the fast, but I think that’s because I still hung out here and there. I’m going to do another one soon. So I can actually focus on my relationship with God.